Discovering Forbidden Fruit

I woke up this Morning… by the loud cock crows from the neighbour’s house, Yeeew that was loud man! Someone must have installed microphone chip in the gullet. Haven’t heard that for a while since I was on the phone with Annie… Aaahhh that was like ages ago when we spoke… Forgotten how the voice has sounded already!

Yippieee!!! One day down and its Weekend! I’ve been looking forward for this… after the lengthy torturing working period, I think I deserve this. I can’t wait! I can’t waaaaiiit!!! Wooohhuuuu!! Missed my quality time on my own… My lavish moment with my little monster! NO MORE official tasks… No more early morning call… No more headaches… No more depressing face… No more papers on my bed… No more! No more!! No More!!

I’ve planned lots of stuff that I’m going to do for the weekend… Priority to my little friend… I’ve promise him a big apple treat and his forever Bob the Builder and the gang – Travis, scoop, Benny, Lofty, Muck, Roley, pilchard, Bob, Wendy, Scruffty, Spud, Farmer Pickles, Bird, Dizzy and Scrambler! Hmmm… I guess that would cost me a bomb for the whole gang of Bob but that’s better than being away from him and we gonna go swimming… and boogie in the car and…watch the airplanes to land!! Fantastic!!

Oooo can’t forget this one…  To start with, I gonna have a date with my Dutchie friend, Helle and the Kadus Bols tonight at Lunna Rossa… Our easy evening together…. Bols have been arranging and planning for this since last year. Now, I got to make it… I can’t afford to give them empty promises anymore… Kinda missing their rumbles grumbles!

Next, I need a real spa massage… that Aromatherapy vibes…. Aaahhh, how nice…that serene feeling… I can have my whole system recover again… a must visit to my hair dresser… I think my hair is turning into barbed wire… My nail is out of shape. Need my manicurist badly!

I’ve been wanting to do this… Wake up lazily, have my Coco crunch, back to bed, cuddle my favourite ball fibre pillow, dream a bit, watch my DVD movie that I’ve been dying to watch – p.s. I love you. Sleep again… wakes up whenever I wanted! Ahhhh God I miss that!

I actually miss cooking for Kevin… My guinea pig… Gonna think what to prepare for him, I need to look for my recipe book… That would be nice for him after having Maggie and egg… Poor Kev!

Ohhh and Yes!! Yes!! My deprived one & only brother will be home after lengthy period talking to him. He needs his strength back… He had a miserable mishap while on duty last week. Pity him… He broke his arm between his shoulder and his elbow… He lost his spirit. He’s in pain of course with the iron reinstate to his bones… Oucccchh!! It was his fateful day…His driver was speeding at 140km per hour chasing suspect which finally fled without being caught. Can’t be sad anymore for him… Need solution, I fly there or he fly here? So he said he misses the Tajau more than missing me. So, Wallaa!! My combating partner will be in town to crack my skull!

Excitingly for the weekend… Now, honestly… I am still thinking about what Doruth told me the night before and yesterday. It’s bugging me. No wonder she was so reserved about who she’s with that day… The day I came down from Mesilau. I supposed I will think it over Ruth. It’s so long ago that it happened and I was trying to forget everything…After what has happened… It’s proven that I wasn’t wrong by saying what I think. I was right! But that is not the issue of winning or not… I wasn’t happy at all. Loosing a friend is no fun to me but recalling back the awful SMS I got… I am mad. I am hurt. I am upset. I am annoyed. And the wound is still there… I am sorry! I did try to forgive and forget but getting to that point where I feel like I was the total idiot victim and I actually can ignore it if ONLY… she didn’t lie… If only she revealed the truth. I know…she’s worried that we will think of her in a different way… Yes but didn’t I say I know what’s going on and offer to talk it out? Despite, I was given all the lame shit excuses! It’s messing my head.

I just don’t get it why… I thought after all the favour I extended to her… all the sacrifices… all the rush… all the tears…This is what I got in return! Awesome! You know what? I am actually tired of consoling… She is wonderful in her own world but I think my brain has dried out dealing with her drama when mine is crazy enough!

So, I decided that auspicious day that I will raise my case… I no longer care… Do whatever…Lie and lie because that is what not friends are for… I am not trying to be judgmental but I’m practically tired and sick of it but again… Arrrgghhh!! It sounds so horrible when up to the extend she actually make it a point to meet up with Kevin… Cried! And then Doruth… Cried. And by listening to all that…what she’d said…. How she cried…. I’m sad again! I know it must be hard for her and the most distressing part for me is that when she says she have no guts and fret to even talk to me! Because of that she lost two friends…I bet she must have known… She must have realized… It wasn’t easy for me at all. I am not perfect either… Maybe after the weekend… when I have enough rest I might consider if I’m ready to see her…Ya I know! Let gone be by gone… Give me time… I’ll give it a thought! A deep thought!

Aaaahhh… Arrrrgghhhh!!! Better now… I feel goood lalalalala!! Weekeeeeeend is coming!! I’m Happy but sad… Missing Ruthie already!